a brief update is necessary to excuse the extended blogging absence. even though, in my case, blogging is incidental, voluntary, and needn't excuses during brief periods of posting-silence - i still supply you with one, and a good one at that.
the last couple of weeks have been chaotic and ridiculous in true utah fashion. ("utah" adj. the love-child of a bizarre maury-style threesome between words "odd," "stupid," and "awkward.")
drew and i moved to a new apartment last weekend, which was caused by and posed a whole bunch of issues not internet-worthy. amidst the chaos that is packing up two people's lives, moving it 5 miles, and unpacking it, there are job related concerns and subsequent financial woes that keep weighing down our chests to the point that i desperately wanted to go home. yes, NYC home.
the following charts explicate my stress levels in macro and micro analysis.
as you can tell by the latter chart...things have calmed down, sort of. thankfully, time does seem to possess healing potential or at least some sort of sedative, numbing, yogic drug with a blurred "calming" effect. there are ups and downs, though im still queasy when i think too hard for long periods of time. there are things on our plate that will still take weeks to figure out. thats just how it is, how life is (right?). ive come to realize how nice it is to talk to both my and drew's parents about things which i feel so fucking clueless about, scared even - truly, a verbal prozac. being blast into "adult" life in utah? of all places is fucking hysterical if you think about it. what we are going through is absolutely absurd and will truly make a great story one day, if we make it out alive... haha.
in the midst of crazy line charts and all of the simultaneous vaguery and clarity i can muster, i find myself making lists of things in order to keep sane. some lists that have been made: "things that make me sad". "things that make me happy". "things that stress me out". "things that i can do to alleviate said stress".
in an effort to play catch-up with you without having to formulate complete sentences, i supply you with two of these lists.
today's lists:
things that have changed:
residence and mailing address
jobs
weather
income
desire to go home
things that have stayed the same:
love and relationships that matter
love of food
opinions
rights
things that have changed:
residence and mailing address
jobs
weather
income
desire to go home
things that have stayed the same:
love and relationships that matter
love of food
opinions
rights
DISCLAIMER:
despite my stress levels and use of negative verbage in this post, things are totally okay in relation to such atrocities as genocide, war, poverty, starvation, incest, human rights violations, censorship, death, theft, or even mormon conversion. there is no reason to be concerned; i blog in order to document the ridiculousness that is utah, while still trying to maintain some sort of privacy... go figure.
despite my stress levels and use of negative verbage in this post, things are totally okay in relation to such atrocities as genocide, war, poverty, starvation, incest, human rights violations, censorship, death, theft, or even mormon conversion. there is no reason to be concerned; i blog in order to document the ridiculousness that is utah, while still trying to maintain some sort of privacy... go figure.
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